[Boys]

i kinda want a boyfriend again. and i know if i really had to have one, i could choose, because thats the position that im in. sort of. ryan has a girlfriend, and so does brad, but chris and john dont. does mat? idk. i want to have that sense of romance. i want to have that special person. i know that my guys will be there for me no matter what, but i want that certain relationship. altho me and ryan have a bond ive never had with anyone else, its still not the same. he says he wishes i was with him on the camping trip with him and brad. is it really just because they're having fun? idk