[Natalie]

im bursting at the seams. i want to much to be with ryan, but i know its the wrong choice to make. i know i need to stop liking him, but every chance i get, i daydream about him. i feel like things are changing between us tho, like we're not as close as we were. im scared that losing our feelings for each other will damage our friendship. idk, i think im just going crazy. idk all i know is that talking to him isnt the same right now, and its alot harder. i hate his one word answers. i hate that we run out of things to talk about. thats not how we used to be. amandas right. i do need to lay low for a while. no txting him till late friday unless he txts first. i need natalie.