[nik]

nik texted me tonight, out of complete random. granted, it was to mess with me, but still. i really do still like him, but when we dont talk for a while i kinda forget. i would still feel weird if i talked to him as much as i talk to the other guys tho, just because of his girlfriend. we could definitely be close if i wanted to be, and maybe i will with whats going on with me and ryan right now. nik was always cooler about things tho too, hes better boyfriend material. i have my new focus/distraction i guess, but atleast it will work out a bit better this time. and hey, maybe when ryan finds out (if he still likes me) he will realize and actually try between me and him again.