[go figure]

im not over ryan. im far better than i was, but my stomach still sinks when i think about him graduating and not having him around at all. i definitely have attachment issues. im so scared that we'll drift apart, that ill lose him. and i very well might at the rate we're going.

my mind is a silent mess right now, and i plan to keep it that way. no more thinking. im confused, and aggravated, and it sucks. no more thinking.

i lo like nik tho, and that has been my crutch lately. that and chris. im talking to him everyday all day and it helps to know that someone cares.