Irreplaceable

It was a sad day when I realized not everyone has a friend like Alex. Most people have that "best friend" they say they would do anything for that means everything to them and that they couldn't live without. But none of those words compare to Alex and I. I have driven to through hurricanes for this man, I've driven 15 hours straight through the night for this man. I have broken rules and gone against my parents and sacrificed relationships for him. There is not a single thing I would not do for him, and that includes putting my life on the line. I would trust him with my life, and I know he would do the same. I've given him a place to crash countless times and I've defended every ill-spoken word against him. He's the one that comes to my rescue, even when I don't need saving. He doesn't offer to beat people up for me, he offers to help me hide the bodies. He offers to take emergency leave from the Marine Corp. when I get dumped. I am one of only two people that he completely trusts in this world and one night while I was driving us home, he turned to me and admitted he's always afraid I will replace him when he's gone. He thinks he's nothing special and we will just find some other crazy son of a bitch to take his place. I nearly crashed the car. Alex is, without a doubt, THE most important person in my life. He has seen me go through everything, and though he may not always agree with my courses of action, he is the only person that has stuck by me through it all. He is the only person I don't feel the need to be territorial over, because I know I'll never lose him no matter what. I am 100% confident in my relationship with him, and that is something I have never been able to say about anyone else. He started out as my Creeper and has grown over the years into my Marine. The fact that I have told boyfriends that if they have a problem with how close Alex and I are, they can either suck it up or leave says just how important he is to me. Recently I've realized why my friendship with Alex has always seemed so different and special. And that is because it is not a friendship at all. We are not just friends, and he's not quite my brother. He is so much more, and it's time to figure out just what that means.